Ohhhhhh boy.... What do I want to say? I have a lot of exes from before I really took dating seriously, so there's quite a few I could address. There are a few things I would like to say to a select few...
RD: You were my high school sweetheart and my best friend. No one had ever understood me or shared so much in common with me before until I met you. You used to be caring and sweet and one of the best friends I ever had. There are some times where I think about the friendship that we used to have, and I miss it. We had an easy friendship, and sometimes it's hard to continue without ever really having that closure from our breakup. I still to this day have never heard why you hate me so much and stopped talking to me...but I continue on with life. I'm doing so much better, and it's awkward when I run in to you and you complain about where you are in life. It's obvious to me now that we weren't supposed to be together as a couple, but I do hope one day that you can turn your life back around away from the drugs and partying. There's a part of me that hopes that we could be friends again.
BP: I feel stupid sometimes for believing you when you said that we would always be friends and that I would never be just another girl in your "little black book". While I do hold some regret for our last day together and my actions; if it had happened any differently, it may not have given me the push I needed to really turn my life around and follow God completely. I do pray for you often as you fight for our country on the other side of the world, and I pray for your safety and happiness.
MB: There are so many things I could say to you. You were and are the love of my life. You were the first guy that I ever truly loved and the first Christian man I dated. You are my best friend, and sometimes you understand me better than anyone else. There will be moments where you can read me like a book and other times where it seems you don't even know me at all or what I'm saying. There are days when I feel like I'm overwhelmed in how much I care about you and love you, and other days when you drive me so crazy that I feel like my head is going to explode and I just want to slap you upside the head. Your friendship means the world to me. I know that you are always there to turn to when I need to talk to someone and share anything with. I don't know what the future holds for us. I don't know if we'll ever be able to work out our differences and communication. I wish I could be as settled and confident as you are. So ready to wish happiness for me with another guy when I'm surrounded by jealousy. There's a part of me that worries that I won't be able to handle being your friend once you've moved on. There's another part of me that says that I can't live without your friendship. I'm scared to find out which part of me is going to be right.
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